~ paLaCe oF my eMotIoNs ~

2004-11-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

oo been so long since i update.. lol.today just came home from chalet.. class de.. it began on sunday.. then my dear dear came at sunday nite.. hee.. so happy to hv her with me at the chalet.. she got to meet the classmates closer to me.. lol.. lalla.. hope i made her enjoy the time spent there.. then today me n her left at 8+.. went to dear house.. rest awhile before going to novena fish n co for lunch.. then after that come my place le.. lol.. so happy the past few days ^^

2004-11-04T10:12:00.000+08:00

hmm been slacking the last few days.. lol.. nothing eventful happen ba.. then yesterday went to meet dear after her work.. she got me a cap from adidas O.O oooo so touched >.< like it so much.. yay~ then aft that we went to tiong bahru comics connection to get a gb prepaid card.. for power user muahahaha x= lalala.. then send dear dear home.. before heading home.. hmm.. love her so much.. will do all i can to assure her that my love for her is true~~

2004-11-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

hmm today.. woke at 10+.. then ate sum cookies n played gb while dear was at work.. after that wrote frenster testimonial for dear dear.. then later went out to meet dear.. first went to cineleisure to get tickets for shark tale.. lol kana drench in rain from mrt to cine zzz.. then after that get drench again cos went from cine to centrepoint to find dear dear.. Zzz~ lala then meet dear le we go find place to develop the digital pics we took at zoo~ lalala.. then went to taka grab sum snacks cos i hvnt had lunchie..lol... then go collect pic.. then cos dear sick so we went crystal jade eat congee for dinner.. wee~ then after that went to catch the movie le.. its so nice~~ the shark damm cute hahahah x= movie lasted one n half hr onli tho.. lol.. after that send dear home then went home le~~

2004-10-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

today.. went to dear hse =D alalala.. she cant go out so went to her hse accompany her.. lalala.. then met her parents n her bro.. hmm.. then lazed at her hse.. so nice spending time wif her by my side.. lalala.. wee~~

2004-10-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

ah~ today.. woke up so early.. at 7.. but dear wake even earlier.. o.o then meet dear go zoo zoo~ lol.. turn out to be so fun.. some of the animals so cute hahah.. then ate the sandwich dear made earlier in the morning.. so touched ~ managed to catch all 3 animal shows.. woot~ hmm.. spent about 6 hrs at zoo.. then after that headed to suntec walk walk abit before having dinner.. went to sky garden there take sum pics.. lalala.. cant wait to develop the photos... so happy.. wee~~

2004-10-28T18:34:00.000+08:00

ahh finally~~ exams over le~~ yay~~ lalala.. today finished paper 1/2 hr before time.. lol.. zzzz. think its ok ba cos onli one mistake so far.. hmm.. then went to bugis after that wif classmates.. just walk arnd n discuss bout chalet.. spent close to 4 hrs at bugis.. siao rite? zzz.. then bought a hp assesory for dear.. her fav character.. lol.. then passed it to her when i met her before she went to work.. lala.. so happy.. glad she liked it ^^v

2004-10-26T17:44:00.000+08:00

mm.. been a while since i update.. been veri lazy lately ba.. lol.. had my 4th paper today.. 2 hr de.. finished in 1 hr.. not bad ba? x= over the weekend gb startd a halloween event.. lala within 12 hours manage to collect the pumpkin head avatar.. for 4 accounts.. 2 for my dear n 2 for me.. lalala.. lol.. yUp.. thursday last paper le.. hmm.. dunno wanna work anot.. even if want.. oso dunno what job suitable for me.. sianz.. spoilt brat is like that -.-"

2004-10-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

oo so fast 1 month le.. >.< lol.. today was the 3rd paper out of 5.. this paper.. can score B at least i think.. cos dont seem to hv made any obvious mistake except a deduction of 2-4 marks.. haa.. then after paper went to meet dear after her work.. missed her so much =D hmm then we went taka ate venezia ice cream.. dunno if its the correct spelling lol.. then went to marche at hereen eat.. mind my spelling ar.. lol dunno correct anot.. hmm then we ordered a cocktail.. acutally is i order la.. tequilla sunrise.. then ar.. in the end dear think nice then finish it lol x= lala.. then we ate til full full before going off.. lalala.. then went kino walk walk before sending dear home.. nice nice day~

2004-10-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

ahh.. todays paper.. hmm shld be can do well ba.. cos didnt hv a question i couldnt answer.. =D.. lol.. ya then after that stayed in sch to revise 2 programmes for fridays paper.. had alot to catch up cos missed alot alot of IT lessons.. lol.. but managed to go thru everything in 1 n half hr.. hoho lol.. so tonite can slack n tml oso can slack le.. cos the programme onli sch comp hv.. lol.. lalala.. hope dear does well for her papers.. doubt she'll hv a problem tho.. shes a smart girl =D

2004-10-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

lets see.. yest gunbound til.. 4am like that lol.. then talk to dear on fone awhile then sleep le.. had a nice rest.. about 12+ woke up.. lol then gunbound somemore.. o.o til had lunch.. then dear went to rest.. so i rot infront of tv.. then after that i revised thru the notes for tml paper once.. then gb somemore til dinner lol.. zz.. then just now revised thru a second time.. hmm think i shld be prepared.. tml morning revise one more time then ok le.. yay~

2004-10-18T15:04:00.000+08:00

hmm first paper today.. quite ok ba i guess.. weakest paper.. can pass .. lol.. lala then after that met dear for lunch.. went cine there eat sushi buffet.. woo.. so full o.O lol then headed home liew.. zzz next paper on wed.. yay so can slack today tml then study.. woooo~

2004-10-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so long nvr update le.. lol.. paiseh ar.. had no time on some days.. and too lazy on others.. =p ah.. exams starting tml.. 3 paper tis week n 2 the next.. hoho.. nid to start studying.. o.o wonder how i will fare for this round of exams.. hmm.. the past few days were nice.. fun.. and wif the company of dear dear.. nothing can go wrong =D ah.. k i stop here ar.. nid to go hv dinner.. then start study fer tml paper.. hvnt started sia.. lol~

2004-10-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

hmm this is fer yest n today..
yest morning suppose to meet class rep in sch at 9 fer revision.. i woke at 8 sia.. lol.. then lazy.. n tired.. so call her tell her cancel.. then met dear dear in afternoon.. went book tickets and ate at pasta mania.. then went walking n walking.. lol orchard getting boring x= then watched wimbledon.. woot.. nice sia.. lol.. then after that we went pizza hut for dinner.. ordered a large stuff crust pizza.. lol.. then the tables around us were like "wa so big" zz.. lol.. in the end managed to finish it.. lala then full le.. then sent dear home before heading home..

then today leh.. went to kick soccer at 1-3pm at st wilfreds.. wif rain they all.. lol.. so long nvr kick le. zz.. so tiring.. then after that went to nearby shop to eat chicken rice.. then went to amk acc rain buy stuff for his project.. then came home le.. zzz tired~~

2004-10-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

hmm so fast friday le.. last few days abit lazy to update..
ok.. today.. went sch at 11 fer 2 lectures.. til 3pm.. boring.. lol.. tml morning nid to go back sch to revise some software.. sian.. but nvm. after that meeting dear.. lol~ lalala

2004-10-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

lets see ar.. yesterday rush report so no time update lol.. x= todae submit report le.. wee~~ then also had final presentation for report writing.. lalala lecturer say got chance get A or dist. x-= wee~ lol... lesson ended super early today.. 3 end le sia lol.. then met dear dear.. dear got to see me in formal wear lol~ then we went to cine get tix for my cool guy.. the korean show.. then we went walking to hereen, taka.. then walk back lol.. had dinner at long john silver.. the food so little lol.. even dear oso not full x= then went to watch the movie.. nice wor.. humourous.. romantic.. violent ghahahaha.. nice nice.. then wait for dear take bus home then came home le~

2004-10-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

hoho .. todae.. boring day.. lol.. woke at 10+.. then played gb with dear dear til have lunch.. after that carry on gb lol.. then 3+ lidat dear dear go nap.. so i go do my presenatation slides.. ahh.. then after that called dear when dear woke up.. tok abit then go hv dinner le.. after dinner gb gb gb.. lol.. til 8+9.. then carry on do work.. wee.. finally complete the 2 presentation de slides.. zz.. tml come home must pia a report.. lol.. ~.~

2004-10-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

wee what a day.. woke up feeling sick.. then so scared cannot go out meet dear sia.. so ate sum bread n took all kinds of medicine lol.. flu.. block nose.. sore throat.. headache.. lol.. then finally got better.. weee.. then go centrepoint meet dear dear.. lala the smile on her face made me feel better right away =p after that we went walk walk.. then went to taka de coffee club.. ooo she drank tea i drank dunno wad tiramsu or smth lidat lol.. then we ate the fruit dip in chocolate.. lalala.. then went walk walk again.. cant find any caps or shades i like lol.. then at nite we went cine yoshinoya eat.. lalala.. so full now.. then after that send dear dear home.. hmm was just glad i can cheer her up ba cos she was alittle moody earlier in the day.. but by the end of the day she was smiling.. hee~~ lalala sho happy~

2004-10-01T20:12:00.000+08:00

aiyo paiseh.. yest slack too much til din update lol.. but todae was another fun fun dae~~ see ar.. went sch.. 8am.. to 12pm lesson.. then had decided to leave after that n go home.. cos abit sleepy lazy.. lol.. then halfway thru lesson dear told me she not working le.. (she cancelled it cos of me wor.. O.O so touched >.<) ya so i met her after that lesson =D then saw her nia keep saying about her full marks for practical lol.. bla, thats my dear x= then we went to lucky plaza to eat the chicken rice.. wee.. i ate 2 servings of rice.. lol.. but in the end still not bloated haha x= lala then cos todae woke up abit lazy then nvr gel my hair.. then we went to world of sports try on caps.. lol then got tis cap dear say look veri nice on me.. oooooooo x= see how maybe next time then buy ba.. lol.. lala so happy todae.. tml can see her agn~~ weeeeeeee~~~ x=

2004-09-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

hoho today had a nice nice day... started off with tutorial.. abit boring.. just laze arnd for 1 1/2 hr.. then after that had another tutorial.. lol told the lecturer to let me off earlier cos i going out.. then she say ok hahaha~~ then met dear dear at bus stop ~~ weeeeee~~ then we headed fer bugis.. lol... just went walking thru the shopping centres.. then she force me take pic wif tigger n pooh soft toy >.< lol.. then after that we went fer dinner.. then go take neoprint.. o.o ya neoprint~~ lol... bla.. oh ya also tried on a specs.. then got a pair of shades which dear sae look nice on me.. ooooo x= lalala then sent dear dear home then came home le.. now sho tired~~ lol

2004-09-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

lets see.. todae.. met dear in morning for breakfast at clementi mac.. wee.. so happy.. seeing her put a smile on me face for the whole day =D then after send her to bus stop.. head to sch.. still got 1 hour to individual presentation.. so.. did some editing on the slides.. by the time i wanna prepare speech.. left 15 mins sia.. lol... then after that went to class. got back last week's report writing result.. woot 79%.. abit low la but highest in class x= somemore first to complete the test lol~ x= hmm then the presentation went ok ba.. lecturer said it was good.. hoho.. x= and she extended dateline fer the final report to next tues.. lalala can slack sommore le~~ >.< then 2-5pm lesson was uneventful.. completed tutorial quickly.. then left at 345.. lol.. x= lalala.. yay tml can meet dear agn x=

2004-09-27T17:44:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae.. skiped the 8-12 lecture... zzz... woke up at 1130.. lol.. went sch ffer the 1-4 lesson.. aiyo so sian.. lol.. so many presentations and datelines coming up.. can i stop skooling.. lol~

2004-09-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

hmm todae.. was a long n nice day~~ wee.. woke up at like 920.. then went back to slp til 10.. lol then bath liew left house to meet dear at ps.. finally can see dear again.. lala... then buy tix for movie @ 630.. then we went to heeren n far east.. shop fer my polo tee.. in the end bought a dark blue pure milk de.. then dear for the same polo tee fer female.. wee~~ then she oso bought a pouch for her mp3 player.. lalalala.. then we went back to ps.. see her haolian her skills in arcade fer awhile.. then went eat fish & co. dear treat me wor.. thx ar dear, hope i din eat too much x= then we ordered cocktails.. lalala but abit sad dear face nvr turn red =x lol.. the mudcake.. nice sia~~ yum yum.. then eat til just nice, can go watch the show le.. we watched police story.. full house o.O lol.. nice show ar.. quite funny also lol.. lalala enjoyed myself today.. hope she did too ~ weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

2004-09-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

ha... today.. got up before 10.. so early sia.. lol.. but dear more early o.o... then the day pass quite slowly.. kinda boring.. lol.. manage to complete one report.. hoho.. got another one.. but now abit lazy le ya.. lol~ lalala sooo looking forward to tml.. wee~~

2004-09-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

hmm.. rather uneventful dae.. o.o.. lectures lectures n lectures.. lol.. booked ns medical.. 18 nov.. wa.. so far away zzz

2004-09-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

well.. today not much to say lei.. 8-10 lesson, then 2-4 lesson.. ZZZ.. 4 hrs of rotting in library lol... sian later gonna do sum pre enlistment documentation fer ns.. hoho muz book medical liao >.<~~

2004-09-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lets see... today.. got up n went to sch.. lol.. 10 to 3.. zz.. but ended tutorial early.. so met ting earlier.. at like.. 2 o.o lol.. then went ps to get tics.. the terminal.. woot~ lol.. movie at 640 -.- so we wnt walking walking walking.. all the way to far east lol.. then later made our way back to ps to eat mos burger.. o.o she just eat fries sia.. eee small stomach x= then went arcade see her haolian zzz lol. finally went into cinema.. ooo full house o.O the show nice laa.. relaxing.. funny.. alittle touching.. lol..

hoho and 22/09/04 is a special date =D lalalalalala

2004-09-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today.. morning first lesson had report writing test.. zz... think im gonna do fine... but with the kind of results im getting lately.. zz who knows sia.. maybe will fail lol~ -.-" then today weather abit nuts.. rain heavily stop then rain heavily stop then again.. siao de leiz.. then got such a bad flu haha.. but now better liaozz... cant wait fer tml~~ weee... x=

2004-09-20T13:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae.. nvr go sch.. o.o... woke up wif a bad headache and a veri sore throat.. zz... sigh.. then went back to slp.. til 12 sia.. zz.. realli pig x= aiya.. dunno if i will touch any work today.. feel lazy still o.o oh god someone smack me lei lol! x=

2004-09-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. sian.. today.. slack my way thru the day.. had 2 servings of lunch... gunbound.. more gunbound... dinner tv.. lol.. zzzzzzzzzz.. still got assignments hvnt do~~ die liao la hahah x=

2004-09-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

hoho.. today har... this afternoon... kinda pissed n moodless cos of some conversation with someone.. zzz.. was an afternoon to forget lol.. but its okay.. evening went to meet ting.. haha first time see her x= then went to burger king at PS fer dinner then caught garfield~ woot.. that cat.. like me sia! buay hia bai, intelligent, lazy.. LOL x= kept telling her garfield was taught by me .. lol! x= loved the part where he skied down the stairs man.. on a tray.. shiok~~ damm chio lol~ then after movie went walk n walk n walk n walk then go back lol.. not bad ar.. enjoyed myself.. =D

2004-09-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

hmm.. got back my remaining 3 results.. hoho.. well below par.. sho sad.. -.-"
lets see...
Construction technology - 69% (more or less expected)
Measurement - 83.5% (supposed to be 90+ -.-)
Contract Administration - 66% (could get 70-80... haiz)
Productivity and Quality - 80% (more or less expected)

haiz. there. my results~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ grrr...

2004-09-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

aiyo.. short day at sch today.. really short.. -.-" lets see.. woke at 11+.. then raining so heavily.. zz went back to slp.. lol.. til 12+ =/ then bath eat n head to sch le.. today got sum language module test... 2-4pm... in the end.. 3pm i finish liao zzz the lecturer stare at me n keep asking "u sure? u sure?" lol zzzzz sian~

2004-09-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

hhhMMMmmmmmm... today.. nth interesting really.. got back one of my test papers.. zzz 69%.. hahahaa like my gb winning rate -.-" quite ok wif the result ba i guesss.. cos tis supposed to be a weaker module fer me.. hmm.. got a make up lesson from 3-5pm.. but i skip.. cos got realli bad flu sia.. zz wanna sleep oso cant sleep in class.. so might as well go home.. lol.. just realise firday alot assignments due.. zzz... so sian dun feel like doing hahah

2004-09-14T18:39:00.000+08:00

hahaa today ar.. woke up then still sleepy... then first lesson.. i walk in... then lecturer pass me mock test p[aper O.O
hahah report writing sia.. i write crap.. lol.. then aft that i apologise to her.. say paiseh i too sleepy lolz.. then she just say its ok x= woot... ah. then other than tt nothing much happen lei o.o zzzz lol i go makan liaoz... if gt anything later then i update agn.. tata~

2004-09-13T15:41:00.000+08:00

wow.. what a day wor.. lol.. got up at 640... zz so tired.. lol how i wish term break still on x= then dragged myself to sch.. first lesson like zombie lidat.. stare at lecturer while he trying to teach us a new program hahaha.. then fer lunch went mac eat.. then there got some event.. got lucky draw.. o.o at first we thought abit bo liao la, so just heck care it.. lol. then when finish the meal like veri sian.. then we decided to just fill up the forms.. lol one of my frens did all the writing hahaha.. up for grabs ar.. 5 128mb thumb drive n 1 mp3 player o.O then we wait wait til they announce winners.. then the first name we hear "Sylvester Lim" -.- tiao! so chua tio! lol then i just act like sum dumb ass go up collect the thumb drive hahahaha.. zzzzzzzzzz so heng meh? -.-" then the classmate who filled up the forms for us.. ya she got a thumb drive too... she deserves it tho.. not like me.. lol..
then the last lecture.. wa seh.. 2+ end liao.. woot lol cos the lecturer nid to attend sum external auditing sai.. lol.. ahhhh ya la.. so heng todae.. o well.. lol.

2004-09-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

wa.. going 8pm liao o.o lol.. so fast slack a day away zz.. hmm.. today suppose to touch up on some projects.. lol.. but in the end... gunbound gunbound gunbound ahhaha.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2004-09-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today went to meet jolene... hhaa.. so long nvr see her le.. think 1yr++++ lol.. so scared i cant recognise her =x then she nvr change much.. lol..lalal.. crap alot wif her sia today.. went to get tix at suntec for "raising helen" .. then got 2 hrs rto the show.. so bought this royce chocolate n eat ... lol.. nice la the chocolate.. just that.. the champaign thats suppose to be in the chocolate... cant taste it lei lol.. next time must try the rum one.. blah..
then the movie.. it was quite touching la actually.. the audrey damm chio!~~ x= lolxx.. then for dinner.. went to kenny rogers.. hmm economical ba i guess.. lol..

nice seeing her.. lol.. did alot of catching up.. then realise that she nvr change one bit.. still the same as old times.. lol.. tiring day~~~ time to gunbound abit then zzz!! x=

2004-09-10T18:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. hvnt updated l;ately.. been pretty tired...
infact.. was actually lazing on my bed.. thinking bout stuff.. then decided to type this entry before i forget about it at nite.. lol...
been thinking bout me and my emotions.. in the past few months.. hmm.. i guess.. i tried so hard.. to be the perfect replacement... hoping that at times he wasnt there for her, i would be.. and eventually hoping that i could replace him in her heart.. perhaps i tried too hard.. cos obviously that eventual hope was never gonna happen.. perhaps all along i was just.. an alternative to her.. when he wasnt there for her i would be.. to try my best to make her happy.. and when he was there.. well.. i wouldnt hv existed... i was never gonna be taking over him.. i was just .. being the perfect spare.. lol.. sighz.. feel so tired.. wld someone pls drag me out of this shit.. lol.. but then again.. who would bother.. who would want to..

2004-09-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so sick of living the same old routine... sick of everything.. of getting up early from a sleepless night... feeling down.. then seeing my mood get better thru the day.... then dip again as night comes.. -.-... like despression patient.. will somene pls dig me outta this shit? -.-"

a little note to her...
hmmm.. dont blame urself for me going thru all these.. see when i first got to know u.. i already knew u had him.. yet i carried on entering deeper into ur life.. i put u in tight spots.. making u confuse... making u upset... making u unhappy.. and no.. these were not what i had set out to do in the beginning... sorry.. some way or another.. managed to be labeled "lover boy" (WTF?) by sum ppl.. supposedly i love easily.. and forget even more easily... but like wtf.. what makes them so sure that i forget.. who actually knows whats on my mind and in my heart.. all the gone memories.. that i hold in my mind... all the regrets i hv in my heart.. =/... sigh.. perhaps i deserve what im getting now.. as a form of retribution for all i've done... sigh.. hope you will now go back to ur old self.. happy once again... hving him taking care of you.. i still pounder somewhere in my mind.. is it possible to love 2 persons at a time... sigh..

=/ sick... of everything. need to find a way out soon.

2004-09-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

sigh.. so tired.. so sick.. of the emotions im going through... everyday go thru the same routine.. wake up.. feel down... get alittle better thru the day... then feel down again at night.. zzz.. kaoz.. like some depression patient.. -.- haiz..

its not ur fault.. dont ever blame yourself.. perhaps i deserve all this.. somehow down the road in my life.. i manage to pick up the reputation as a lover boy (wtf?) .. and from the comments i received.. this grp of people.. love easily , forget easily.. but wtf.. why do people comment about me when they cant be sure if i forget or love easily..? sigh.. perhaps i deserve all this ba.. for my mistakes in the past.. so dont ever blame yourself.. i really love you... sigh.. thank you.. for making me so happy during this period of time.. you must take care of urself ya.. i know its abit stupid asking u to take care of urself la.. cos theres him to look after you..... just... sigh.. dunno how to continue...

sigh. screw everything in this world.

2004-09-07T17:03:00.000+08:00

hhhMMmMmm... feel so tired.. physically, mentally n emotionally.. haiz.. o well.. got up at 9 today.. with red eyes lol.. sai.. try hving panda eyes n red weyes at same time.. sux -.-" went to sch.. help my classmate do his fyp.. lol.. saw wood zz.. i think tio sawdust in my hair sia hahah... then rot in library... in the end didnt know i go to sch ffor wad... -.- blahhh waste my time.. lol..

2004-09-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

hahha.. fuck it all.. scarew everything la... lol... last week.. so happy looking forward to today.. hoping my plans for today can work out.. almost screwed by last min project meeting... in the end didnt go for the meeting... then what.. end up also plan cancelled.. lol... fuck fuck fuck la!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-09-06T10:52:00.000+08:00

o.O *yawnz* woke bout an hour ago.. lol suppose to be in sch discussing proj.. but woke late n feel unwell... bla.. =/ hmm.. feel so confused.. dont know what to do... follow heart.. or follow mind?.... sigh... oh well.. hopefully a nice day ahead ba.

2004-09-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

wawa.. so long nvr update le.. haha.. paiseh ar... lately dreally been gb crazy...guess i realli need it to keep my mind off things ba? i dunno -.- zz... nothing exciting happened lately.. term break starts tml.. but probably gotta go back sch afew days to do work n project.. sian 1/2 =/

2004-09-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

hahaha yay term tests over le~~~ hmm.. today paper.. ok la.. lol.. 2 hr paper.. spent 1 hr sleeping... 20 mins of studying for 9 chapters.. zz lol.. hmm cant meet her til monday earliest... dunno when can talk to her.. haiz.. guess i'll be gb-ing like mad ba.. tata..

2004-09-03T11:09:00.000+08:00

haa.. today woke at 9.. then went back to sleep til 1030.. lol.. seems like same pattern as yest hor? lol.. ahh.. now reading thru the notes.. about halfway thru.. o.o dunno can do well anot lei.. lol.. siao la.. gb addict again -.-"!!!

2004-09-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

ok.. lets see.. today got up at 9.. suppose to study.. but weather too good went back to slp til 1030.. lol.. then finally started studyin at 11am o.o but kns lei.. so little to read.. then 1130 finish le =/ if i had known then slept more le lol! the paper was.. ok ba.. can pass or maybe do welll.. but i actually hope i fail o.o then maybe can wake up.. cos failing a distinction module is.. a big drop in standard.. lol.. =/

hehe then after that head to amk n met her.. yesss.. finally can see her.. although for awhile nia.. but just so happy to see her.. =) really hopes she gets well soon..

2004-09-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

o.o manage to exhcnage afew sms with her.. shes not feeling well =(.. wish i could be there to take care of her.. oh well.. hope she gets well soon...

2004-09-01T10:44:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today abit better.. 6 hrs slp.. lol~.. sian.. tml got paper le -.- haiz

2004-08-31T09:05:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 3 hours of sleep.. lol.. o.o been gunbounding like mad.. sigh.. tuesday.. wish she was here..

2004-08-30T19:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm... today.. paper was.. easy.. zz.. if study sure get A le lol.. x= but its ok la.. at least wont fail.. hurhur.. cant get my mind off her.. next paper on thursday.. think im gonna slack n slack til thursday morning.. zz.. lol.. lifeless.. not myself. disrupted by emotions.. lol..

2004-08-30T09:58:00.000+08:00

hmm just got up..well.. for the 3rd time.. first got up at 6.. couldn't really sleep.. then dozed off and got up at 8.. received her sms.. and called her.. managed to talk to her on the phone for awhile.. that brightened me up considerably.. =) miss her so much o.o.. hmm after that got back to sleep and ya.. woke up just.. lol.. think i better go bath n revise alittle for the test later on.. tata..
~hope she takes care of herself.. and hopes to see her soon~

2004-08-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

sigh.. feeling very.. low.. and down now... wont be able to talk to her for the next 2 days... argh..
perhaps i'm asking for too much.. or rather.. perhaps i expect too much.. sigh.. cant i just take her away from him.. but i cant do it alone.. i need her help too.. she has to be willing to come.. right... sigh...term test term test.. fuck all the tests la.. argh.

2004-08-29T11:47:00.000+08:00

weee.. got up at 8+.. then went back to slp.. then got up at 11.. lol..
then.. she called~~ hehe.. so happy~ hmm.. but put down le.. zz.. later then call me again.. probably in evening.. will look forward to then.. =D missing her..

2004-08-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

haaa today test was abit fucked. lol.. cant do well la but most prob can pass x= after that went to meet rain n his classmates... go suntec convention the comex.. zz.. so crowded... ahha... after that went walking arnd suntec, they wanted to find place to eat... then finally settle down at pasta mania.. hahah then happening sia.. one waiter attitude us wghagaga then me, rain and ian sebei buay song the waiter~~ hoho x= then came to realised that the guys in rain's class all oso lamers.. cold jokers.. lol. x=

after that rain treat me go coca at taka~~~ steamboat buffet~~ woottttttttt....... food there was excellent!!!!!!! only down point was.. i order gin tonic.. then the cb mix was so bad.. like no gin at all zzz... oh well.. eat til sebei full hhahaa.. until the poor ice kachang no place in my stomach.. haiz.. waste $4.50 x=

eh RAIN~ thanks ar for treat~~ *smacks rain on the back* lol.. weee so full.. feel likle fallinh asleep..

aiya.. missing her tho.. zz.. hope she calls tml morning... lol..
tata~

2004-08-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

sigh..
dunno what to type. the reason i created this blog.. is so that i hv a place where i can vent out the emotions trapped in me.. to say things i cant say to her.. but i realised.. if my blog was just about my emotions.. it just seems so.. cold.. so sad.. lol.. which wouldnt be fair.. because even though not having her... she is still able to bring me happiness...

sigh.. do you know how much i really wished that i could hv met u earlier... now when asking u to make a decision.. its like him making it for you.. its like hes the one controlling u instead of urself... it makes things.. so hard.. u dont like no being given freedom.. then why.. why put up with all these.. promised not to be sad.. but its so hard.. i really tried.. sometimes i just cant control my emotions.. feels like my mind is spiralling out of control.. incidents like these.. might seem small to you.. but it has quite an effect on me... i feel so.. pointless living.. so meaningless.. so moody.. everything i do.. what the fuck i do it for.... can i skip the term paper.. really dont know what kind of mood i will be in tomorrow.. just feel like finding a place.. to cry and shout... cry my heart out.. all these frustrations... all these.. dreams.. hopes.. wishes.. that probably cant be fufilled... u dont like making decisions..? or is it just that theres somone making it for u all the time... sigh...

End

2004-08-27T20:41:00.000+08:00

hoho.. so late liao then update blog x= hmm.. today no sch.. supposedly its a day off the sch gave us to start preparation for the upcoming term tests (whcih start tml -.-).. but oh wellll.. as usual i spent any free time i had rotting away either sleeping of in front of the comp.. lol =x

harrr.. hvnt stasrt studying for tml paper.. lol.. die liao.. hmm.. actually.. maybe wun die la.. x= lol. ahh.. today spent some time rotting on bed, palying command n conquer red alert 2 (ya la old game la o.O) , some time spent in gunbound.. and also watching tv.. lol.. everything xcept studying o.o.. zzz .. guess i better start revising soon.. tata~~

(i must stop slacking ~~) lol... x=

2004-08-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

hahaha just got a tag boardie x= those who read better tag hor, i dun wan dead board lol x=

2004-08-26T12:49:00.000+08:00

hoho today stay at home.. suppose to go sch for 130 to 530 lesson.. lol.. but not feeling well la.. sore throat.. then feel super lazy.. zzz.. lol.. hurhur.. whole day stay home.. sian~~~~~~~~~ x=

2004-08-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

hmm just got home.. hurhur.. 25th aug~~ lol.. btw i would like to thank all those who remembered my bday n wished me happi bday ar.. and to those that forget~ u all so bo xim >.< x= j/kj/k lol.. its ok la actually..

ok.. day started with the first lesson.. zz.. halfway thru the lesson 3 of my classmates suddenly remember my bday n shout "happy birthday sylves" in class -.-" it was a combined class sia.. so paiseh zz lol. then received a pressie.. a black wallet.. lol cos they felt my wallet was rotting le hahah.. then ok la.. received handshakes and afew punches.. lol

then at 1140 lidat left sch.. went to meet her~~ weee~~ lol. first went to lido get tix for stepford wives lol.. then head over to far east n got a haircut.. YES! A HAIRCUT! lol. ahh then after that went to sakae ar hereen and eat the buffet.. o.o bloated sia.. really bloated.. lol~ then ordered a bottle of Taru Sake.. chilled one.. jap wine.. acohol 13.8% o.O lol
then in the end left 1/5 of the bottle cant finish cos too full -.- btw it tastes like fake brandy ar.. tastes like the smell of the antiseptic that they apply on ur skin before injections lol! x= heng nvr get drunk.. arbo dunno how lei? lol
then went to catch the movie.. the movie.. ok la.. abit lame la.. robot land lol. then after that went back to far east, where i managed to convince her to buy a top which she like.. simple n nice white toppy =D then late le zz.. so just went home after that..

lol.. if she ever reads this.. thanks really for accompanying me today.. i may not show it thru my expressions but i am so so so so happy to hv u with me thruout the day~~~ wo hao ai ni arrrrr x=

kk i think i go rest le lol.. niteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2004-08-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

haaaaaaaa entry before 12 =x
heng ar lucky i remember to update lol~
today rather boring day in sch.. realised so many so many work to do during term break zzz.. stuipid modules -.-" hmm.. after sch went see sum shoes.. then went ate abit of sushi from cold storage o.O. well, its the company that matters x=
lol lalala gonna 12 le.. wonder how tml will go~~~
tata~

2004-08-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

always thought i would be able to do whatever i set my mind out to do.. just realised how timid i am.. how gutless.. i lack courage.. to take any actions.. lac the courage to even ask questions.. i am that useless.. sigh..
are you able to love 2 person at once.. do you tell him i love you still... sigh.. please tell me... i dont want to keep on guessing.. guessing just makes me keep thinking and drives me crazy... do you love me... do you love him... dunno is not an answer... i hope i do get an answer... -haiz-

2004-08-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

hurhur~ just got home.. hving dinner nw.. lol.. hmm.. today wake up.. damm tired sia -.-
8am lesson.. sux.. reach the comp lab headache liao lol.. from 9 to 11am got test.. ica o.o think i can pass la but wun do well zz =/ (this is a result of slacking n cant be bothered to practise). hmm after that the afternoon lesson.. go in nia fell asleep liao hahaha =x then kana suan by lecturer, zzz ask me wake up.. so sad -.-

haha but nvm, my day took a turn for the better, much much better, cos after that went to meet her.. weeee... missed her so much.. lol.. hmm ya la.. was with her til an hour ago.. eh.. stupid cathay.. nvr show bourne supremacy liao.. kns! zzz can sue them anot ar? -.-

hmm..

2004-08-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

today... boring day.. whole day stay at home~~ woke up at 10 lidat.. zz then just rot around..
had maggee mee for lunch.. lol inside the ingredients like steam boat ingredients lei lol.. steamboat maggee x= hmm.. in afternoon waited n waited for that call ar.. spent all the time infront of comp.. either gb or just rot arnd.. but ya.. today nvr go out agn.. o.o..

hmm nvm.. shld be tml can see her le x= weee altho end abit late tml.. but still.. as long as can see her, anytihng oso can =D hohoh think i end here for now.. go watch tv.. if any other interesting stuff happen later then update x= tata~

im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......

2004-08-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......
im so fuking useless n hopeless.. lol......

sigh

2004-08-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

nope.. din go out today.. at last i feel better now that i'm able to talk to her..
hmm.. today was a boring day i guess.. got up at 10, stared at the hp for 1 hr or so then went back to sleep.. lol
then the rest of the day spent rotting away infront of the comp.. alittle gb, alittle cm.. zz seems like rotting my life away lol..

sigh.. feel so vexed.. its like im losing control of myself.. and expressing feelings i shld keep to myself.. dammit.... why.. why is this.. feel of jealousy n enviouness getting to my head.. whats wrong with me.. cant i wait?!?! argh.. feel so broken down.. being dragged on just by a hope.. hoping that i would be healed some time down this uneven road.. sigh..

hmm..

2004-08-21T01:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. saturday le.... wonder if she's asleep already..
dont know if will be able to see her later..
miss her so much.. longing to hold her in my arms...
guess its another sleepless night for me..

if you do read this... hope you know.. that you just are so important to me..

o.o

2004-08-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

hmm... feeling very hungry rite now.. o.O
only had 2 cans of coffee for lunch lol~ =x hmm... during first lesson today then realise got a test later on in the day =/ then i see all my classmates there panicking, trying to study, but only me 1 person slacking doing nothing lol.. what a sight x= what can i say? i AM a slacker zz

sigh.. missing her again.. wonder what shes doing now.. wonder how is she... dunno if she'll do her assignment.. is she in his arms right now.. argh.. =/ i guess i can only say tt im jealous n envious that he is the one beside her and not me.. oh well... life's so saddddddddddddd >.<~

argh..

2004-08-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i feel so useless.. so redundant..
i know she's not mine.. i know she belongs to that someone else..
yet i fell inlove with her.. so deeply that i cant drag myself out..
keep dying for her attention.. even though shes not mine..
im just so fuked.
argh..

first entry...

2004-08-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmm... first time doing blog.. o.O
find it so troublesome x= should ask them give us drive space to upload pics or other stuff we wanna put onto the blog ma -.-
dunno wad to type for first entry lei.. like so so much info to put in, but when start typing mind just go -blank- zzz
this shall be my first entry ba.. if got anything else i add on later lol
byebye